THOSE WHO SUFFER LOVE
The first genuinely destructive night in a long, long time. Months even.
Exceptionally angry, and I took it out in the worst sort of way-
I keep trying to find things- Anything- For me to buy into, to give myself to- To find something that would give anything fucking back to me- Desperately, I need anything- I want something that will stand behind me, or beside me, or walk in front of me if I needed it-
Tonight was one of the nights where Just be patient, be patient, be patient wasn't enough...
I will wait for one day when I am not forever and always just a child...